Got back from a quick weekend in Singapore - will blog about it.

In the meantime, I need to get my NS appeal sorted out, and explain to Dad how I KNOW I HATE the British system (Exams are all that matters), and that I know I will suffer with exams, but I WANT to go to the States, and unless he is willing to scoop out an equivalent of 1 year of uni for me to go to IB, A-Levels is my only option that can open enough doors for me. Dad has this fixation against the A-Levels ("What's with your fixation on studying in the States?"), and a fixation FOR SAM (Pot calling the kettle black).

Anyway, he makes it sound like I want to come back and work in Malaysia or something. Which was always at the bottom of my plans (Even if studying in Australia - I'd work there, too). And they're all "You know it won't be easy getting into the UN, right?"

Look, I KNOW it's not easy to get into the UN. That's why I don't mention ANYTHING about Political Science being a REQUIREMENT for SEC-GEN. It doesn't meant I'll ONLY work in the UN. It's an END GOAL. THE LONG-TERM GOAL. THE ONE TO WORK TOWARDS.

And I thought parents were supposed to be supportive. Just because my sister isn't doing THAT amazing in uni doesn't mean I'LL end up the same way. OF COURSE NOT. ESPECIALLY IF I DO get into COLUMBIA. DUDE. IT'S IVY LEAGUE. FAIL ANYTHING, YOU GET KICKED OUT. Not literally, but seriously - you're talking about learning from the most brilliant minds, and studying AMONG the most brilliant minds - kinda makes you look like the idiot in class if you fail anything, right? Especially when it's a bigass chance that no one else in the class will fail.

BESIDES. A-Levels will give me a bigger chance of getting in MORE uni's than SAM will. I don't only have the Ivies. There's still the University of Boston (Okay, it's actually uMass, Boston). I can apply for Georgetown. Better uni's and a wider choice than just Columbia, Cornell, Princeton and 7 other unranked, unknown uni's.

I'm fine with mum - she's not saying much against what I've told her. But dad. He's so... uptight all the time. So skeptical on everything. I know it's his personality (Comes from my grandmother, I reckon). He works hard and all, but he keeps cutting across when I want to say something. It's frustrating. Good listener is NOT what my dad is.

I know I can take the leap of faith and believe in myself. I need them to understand that when I do believe in myself, I CAN do it. Look - I never failed Add Maths again after the Jan exams. Why? Because I hated failing, and I didn't want to fail again. Notice the lack of red marks after that? And they should stop complaining about me being prejudiced against accounting. They're being prejudiced against Political Sciences (Okay, mum isn't. But Dad still has that frame of mind of me coming back to Malaysia working with a PolSci degree. NO. NOT A CHANCE IN HELL)

Oh, and they were talking about how I should not be so narrow, don't just think about Political Sciences. Well, I DID say that I AM leaving other options open. Like Sociology. Biomed is still on the list. The fact is, I have managed to leave my options pretty open for college, and even if I am left with humanities to study, I know what they are, and what I want to do.

As you can see, that was one heck of a long ride down to Singapore. Thankfully the topic has yet to resurface. Or not I'd tear my hair out and ask about THEIR problem with me trying to study in the States.

Hgrmph. It's past midnight. I shall go to sleep. And brood more about my future impending doom tomorrow, and throw out old secondary school books.