So last night, I had a talk with my Mum about what I planned to study/major in next time, because that would affect what I first take in college.

*Cue how-did-you-do-in-exams, what-subjects-are-your-strength*

I was telling her how I would love to do Science (Like Biomed), but now I'm unsure of whether I really want to be in a lab all the time. I mean, I love having alone time, but Science poses a different sort of challenge. And I told her that realistically, I'd end up doing Humanities. My Mum told me how she wanted to be a Microbiologist ('Cause she rocked at Bio), but sucked at Chemistry (I was like, "What? I thought you said you sucked at Physics"), so she couldn't do microbiology in the end (Imagine, my mum as David Sandstrom. Oops. Going off topic), and then she was saying that she felt that she was a very analytical person. THUS, ACCOUNTANCY CAME UPON HER. (Man I hope that doesn't happen to me. But now I realized how much more similar I am to my mum. I mean, type of food we like is one thing. How I act is another. LOL) (I have good genes.)

She didn't seem to mind when I said I wanted to do Political Sciences, haha. She was like, "The first degree isn't really *that* important. It's *where* you get your first degree from," because she knows this guy who's a director in an investment bank who got a degree in HISTORY in Oxford. It's more of the analytical skills and stuff that they want.

Mum also suggested that I might want to take Commerce (Uh... Accounting? No.) and major in something OTHER than accounting, like, maybe Business Admin or something. (Cue "Oh, I'd love to work in the UN" I got a "There, Business Admin can what." reply)

Then Mum suggested Psychology, which I think is an interesting field of study, but I don't want to spend too much time with head cases, or not I might become a head case myself. Besides, Psychology is taught in Political Sciences, so that's covered a little, LOL. Then I was like, "Psychology? HMM. HOW ABOUT SOCIOLOGY?" because it's probably a less head case-y study of human behaviour.

My problem now : I want to study in the US. The only way I can get into a good uni/an Ivy League, is if I take A-Levels or IB. Because SAM? Is only accepted in 7 US uni's, from the list I checked. I don't want to take A-Levels, because I know that I suck under the British education system, and the problem with IB will be cost and accessability to the campus (Taylors is offering it at Sri Hartamas at mid '09, the only other place that offers IB is ISKL - That is, The International School of KL, and if I'm not wrong, KDU. You know how expensive private schools are. Ew.)

So, since I want to work in the UN, I just thought that maybe I'd ask my mum's friend for input, since she works in the UN. But then I realized that she's only coming back from NY during, like, Chinese New Year, I think, and DAMN YOU, NATIONAL SERVICE. Unless I somehow get to see her during my one-week break which I will be applying for for CNY. Hmph.

SO YOU KNOW WHAT MY PLAN IS NOW?

PRAY. Hahaha. Yes, I'll pray so that I make the right choice and that I won't ever regret it. EVER.

SO I SHALL PRAY.

AND STUDY BIO AND PHYSICS. NOW.

[Edit]: OMG THEY SHOWED AARHUS. THEY FREAKING SHOWED AARHUS. THEY SHOWED THE WOMEN'S EVENTS AFTER THE MEN'S. WHICH MEANS I PROBABLY MISSED STUTTGART!

NO!

OTOH: Nastia was already out of her awkward stage in '06, aSac was already captain, and Chellsie fell off the UB, but she's still fierce. Also, Dad (Who happened to be near the TV when I just changed channels to OMGCHELLSIEMEMMEL) went "Chellsie Mem(As in memo)mel (As in Mel Gibson)" I LOL'ed internally.

Also, Cheng Fei is awesome. 'Nuff said. And it was only teams. I'm holding my hopes out that next week they'll show individuals ('Cause Soccermoney won Silver on vaults in Aarhus!). WAIT.

NO. NO. SHOW RHYTHMIC GYMNASTICS NEXT WEEK. I WON'T BE HERE. THERE'S NO 8TV IN WHOEVERS HOUSE IT IS IN SINGAPORE. GAH.

[Edit edit] Oh, ShawnJohn, why so presh? I know you love peace signs and all. But seriously. I don't think peace signs should be on leotards. And are you doing it because Nastia has a signature line of gym equipment? Because if you are, that is adorable. And you can't have tater without tots.

[Triple edit] I can bet with you that you didn't understand a single one of my edits.

Chellsie is so awesome with her car choice. AUDI, FTW! And her dream car? "My silver Audi TT" (Which she already owns) Upgrade to the R8, bb. Or you could just modify your TT to look like an R8 (Because I saw someone's TT modified to have the R8 sideblades and stuff. But the original >>>>>>>>> a modified TT)

Did I tell you that my Dad SAW AN AUDI R8 WHEN THEY WENT TO SINGAPORE TWO WEEKENDS AGO? WHY? WHY DID HE GET TO SEE THE R8 AT ONE OF THE *ONLY* TIMES I COULDN'T FOLLOW THEM DOWN TO SINGAPORE?! (DARN YOU, SPM)

Considering the fact that he saw it around the Marine Parade/Marine Parade Community Centre area, I am holding my hopes up that the R8 belongs to SOMEONE ON THE EAST COAST, AND I WILL BE ABLE TO SEE IT, SOMEHOW, WHEN I GO DOWN TO SINGAPORE NEXT WEEKEND. Or not I'll just beg someone to drive me to the Audi showroom.

Anyway, 3 days of exams left to go. My sister is coming back on Sunday night, and I probably wouldn't be able to see her until Monday afternoon (Aaaw), unless I cheat and stay up 'til about midnight. But Monday is Bio, and... whatever lah, see what happens.

Also, House mentioned Olympic gymnasts. It wasn't funny, but I LOL'ed.

NS list is supposedly going to be up online on the 27th. So...

Chemistry was...

Chemistry was...

Now it's gonna be hard to get an A1. And it was kinda anti-climactic after all the INSANE Pn Christina/Pn Pushpa/Pn Lee Yoke Lay chem papers we get in school, and Trials was definitely trickier, but I hope I didn't make any silly mistakes.

OH, BIO ON MONDAY. MY FAVOURITE SCIENCE SUBJECT. I haven't been reading Bio recently, though. Aw. I hope Genetics comes out. I love that chapter.

Got the 2nd Trials Physics paper 3 today, I got 34 out of 40, haha. I still don't know how I can score so well in Physics - but I'm not complaining. I kinda bust my ass trying to wrap my head around Physics, and the work pays off. But that doesn't mean I understand it. LOL.

SPM is almost over - one more week - no time to slow down! TIME TO MOW THE LAST 3 PAPERS.

[Edit] Also, for some funny:

I'm not too sure about the details, but anyway, America's Big Three carmakers (Chrysler, Ford and General Motors, if I recall correctly), are in a pinch due to the current economic situation. The Democrats didn't like the Big Three because they didn't make fuel efficient cars, so the Big Three ran to the Republicans, but now the Republicans are refusing to bail the 3 companies out.

I'll search for some news, but I'm not in a hurry. But that's just so you understand the 'toons.


LOL, BARACK MOTORS. And, yeah, Obama got A LOT of cash during his campaign.


Hahaha, I'm not an Apple fan, but too funny to pass.

I just deleted an entire crack-filled post because it was so random.

Hahaha.

LOL. Someone just compared Chellsie Memmel's looks to Dr Erica Hahn's (Grey's Anatomy, acted by Brooke Smith who was recently fired by ABC because of 'creative differences'. I think it's because her character's the only one that's really gay/bisexual/whatever. Spoilers for people out of the US who don't read the news?).

LOL.

Add Maths was... I shall not comment. All I can say is that doing the past year papers about 3 times didn't help.

Moral was fine. Better than Add Maths. And I love the rain.

Anyway, 6 subjects down, 4 more to go. 4 days to go.

I'm waiting for my NS letter to come.

I normally don't read press releases on future episodes and/or casting for them, but...

HOMG LORI PETTY IS GOING TO BE ON HOUSE IN 510

AAAAAAH!!!!

509 IS HAVING ZELKJO IVANEK, THEN 510 HAS GOT LORI PETTY?

A League of Their Own was, like, one of my FAVOURITE RANDOM MOVIES EVER! I think I was in Melbourne when I first saw the movie, but it's on reruns at random times on AXN, and I still love the show and all its randomness. And it has one of my favourite Madonna songs in it. Madonna. I know. Don't criticize me. It's a nice song.

And, LOL, JULIA PUTNAM AS [Spoiler]. She's got BLUE EYES. KIND OF, THE WRONG EYE COLOUR? And... HOW OLD is that kid? She's, like 4'6", which is... TINIER THAN SHAWN JOHNSON. And she was on Frosted Pink With a Twist. SHE MUST HAVE SEEN SHAWNJOHN AND HBIC AND OMG ASAC.

"Special Skills: ANIMAL LOVER, ARTS & CRAFTS, GYMNASTICS, HULA HOOP, RAZOR SCOOTER, TRAMPOLINE, WORLD TRAVELER, Billiards/Pool Player, Bowling, Fishing, Gymnastics, Ice Skating, Jump Rope, Ping Pong, Rollerblading, Running - General, Snorkeling, Swimming - ability - general, Trampoline, Improvisation, Modeling, Singer"

Those are weird things to put in a resume, but *shrug*

Going to fangirl about Zelkjo Ivanek and Lori Petty on House now.

[Edit] OH MY GOODNESS LORI PETTY WAS ON NY BEFORE? I REMEMBER NOW. SHE WAS THE LADY WHO OWNED THE BILLIARDS PLACE. OH MY GOODNESS, LOL.

I totally meant that I'm going to study Moral and Add Maths.

The 13 hate on the Internet is amusing.

Why is it that I tend to like the despised characters on TV shows (eg. 13 and Lindsay on NY. People don't like Lindsay. WHAT? And they say Anna Belknap's acting sucks. Bitter, bitter people. Anna Belknap's on a primetime TV show. You're in a chair typing. Too bad. Have you seen her on Medical Investigations? She's so sarcastic I love her to bits), and I don't quite like the beloved characters (Eg. Chase and Danny)?

I'm weird, LOL.

I should be finishing my Add Maths, not hanging around the Internet being bored.

Also, POST SPM PLANS!

- Any sleepovers MUST be between 1 December and 7 December. Auntie Wilma's going back for good on 7 Dec, so Mum says that if any one of you want sleepovers, it has to be BEFORE. I'm going down to Singapore only for the weekend then, it seems. I don't know.

- GYM. I NEED/WANT TO GO TO A GYM. I want someone to accompany me. Jen? Yih Shan suggested to go to Sue Mae's dad's gym. Good idea?

- DRIVING THEORY TEST/COURSE. When, and how long is the results valid? If it's less than 3 months, and we're (We being Yih Shan and a I. And possibly Kar Mun and Yvonne?) going for NS in the first batch, it will be POINTLESS. Jen- you're going for NS too, right? *Adds Jen's name to the list*

- HAHAHAHAHAH DRIVING. OH, DRIVING. I WANT TO DRIVE. I CANNOT WAIT TO DRIVE. (I think it's the Add Maths and Moral talking)

[Edit]

Okay, so I found my hard copy of the story I handed in to Gemala. And I found EVEN MORE STUFF EDITED OUT. NO WONDER WHY IT SOUNDED WORSE THAN BRAIN FART. Either that, or the earlier paragraphs that were cut out, I cut out myself. I don't know. I can't remember. My hard copy's longer than what's in the Gemala.

Anyway, they missed the last TWO paragraphs, pretty short, but definitely ties the story up much better. So I shall type it here for Jen, since she was curious. And, oh, my hard copy has Beth written as 'Susan'. Heh. ER characters FTW. Oh, wait, Beth is also an ER character (CORDAY, YEAH). Anyway - to the ending:

I know I've been over-analyzing, because...

Here I was, walking with Gary [Uh... My mistake. Elliot. I must've edited that again] Elliot, after our last SPM paper. I turned around and saw Rachel behind, quite a distance away, watching us. She nodded at my direction. I smiled back. Elliot Gary was there by her side, grinning from ear to ear. Susan Beth was giving thet "Aw, how adorable!" look.

I turned and smiled at Elliot, and he smiled back. He offered his hand, and I took it. I turn around one last time, to see Rachel and Gary high-fiving each other.

I seriously need to stop over-analyzing.

----END!-----

I think the Gemala people probably cut off paragraphs because my hard copy has it at 1 1/2 pages. Heh.

So I was reading the Gemala, and I have come up with several notes for myself.

1. Don't hand in brain farts. EVER. Rushed brainfarts from very random prompts are not good
2. You can't handle 1 page stuff. 2 pages, no problem. 1? NOT ENOUGH TO GIVE CHARACTER. NOM NOM NOM.
3. Gemala totally cut out the last paragraph, so now all that's left is a really weird, hangy sentence. I never end my stories with weird hangy sentences like that. I end them with things that TIE TO THE TITLE. IT IS WHY I PUT THAT TITLE (Okay, it was also a prompt. But whatever). FELICITY, HOW COULD YOU? XD

Also:
- Sigma has the most awesome senior pages ever.
- The prefects' pages came out quite well, I'll say
- I think I spied the first printed copy of our senior pages in a picture... In the senior page. The picture with the prefects crowding around Chooi Si and my tables. IT'S THERE. I CAN SEE IT. THE FIRST PRINTED DRAFT.
- Someone in school owns a Kawasaki Ninja. I saw. I squeed. I think it's an invigilator, but WHATEVER. THERE WAS A FREAKING KAWASAKI NINJA IN SCHOOL. SUPERBIKES, FTW. Edmond likes the Ninja. He should've been there. I personally prefer the Honda CBR's.
- Jen, I'm happy I provided some LULZ with... my face in the Gemala, but anyway, Jo Zee and I were going for... I don't know what we were going for. But it's still funny.

Well, it's back to study time.

OH, AND ALSO-

NO MORE MOD MATHS. EVER AGAIN. Aw. I want to get an A1 for Mod Maths. I HAVE to get an A1 for Mod Maths. Because Pn Normawati's the most awesome Mod Maths teacher ever, and she deserves to have her students get A1 for her subject. ALSO, I intend to ask her to write the referral letters for me when I apply for uni because she's probably the teacher who knows me best. I swear I would also ask Asmahan if she was still in school. I'm crazy, I know. LOL.

The more basic subjects are over, the Add Maths and the Moral and the Sciences are coming right up! 3 days down, 5 more to go! YOU CAN DO IT! (Okay. Whenever I read 'You can do it!' now I hear Bela or Marta Karolyi's voice. Ew. Claws)

[Random Edit]
So I was listening to S Club 7 again, and just remembered how Rachel [Stevens] and Jo [O' Meara] have rather similar voices, except for when they sing the stronger parts. Gah. I still remember watching those S Club shows on Disney back in the days. Totes made me a fan. I remember Rachel hit off solo (With some semblance of success. I remember her songs were played on the radio), Jo had a solo career at some point in time (Not as much success as Rachel, I think. Strange, considering the fact that Jo was the lead for S Club and all. And I like Jo! =D), Hannah [Spearitt] (She's so presh. She was, like, the Shawn Johnson of the group. So... perky) was/is doing some acting, I think.

Ah, I miss my S Club 7. I remember being pretty sad when they split, LOL. I still have an S Club 7 poster in my cupboard (Don't ask me why I have posters in cupboard instead of on my wall or something), where Galaxie totally mixed Jon [Lee] and Paul [Cattermole] up.

Oh, and I remember that 'Never had a Dream Come True' was one of the lamest music videos I've ever seen. But I still liked the band anyway.

Hahahaha, this is really random.

NO MORE BM, EVER.

NO MORE SEJARAH, EVER (Awww... I kinda like Sejarah, although some bits suck)

NO MORE ENGLISH, EVER. T_T

Highlights of the day:
English 1 : "OMG. WHAT ESSAY TO WRITE?" *writes lots and lots of points about Justine, aSac, and my mum's friend who works in the UN*. "Crap. Success in LIFE. Justine's tennis life = awesome win. aSac = She fell off the beam. Although, YOU KNOW, IVY LEAGUE. ELITE INTERNATIONAL GYMNAST. But I'm not as obsessed over her as I am with Justine, and it's hard to describe gymnasts/tennis players working hard. Mum's friend? ... I don't really know much, do I?" *prays* *Intro to NUMBER 4 comes* *Writes ONLY 2 pages. But I don't think I had many ideas to write any more*

Conclusion: =D

English 2 : *Flips pages to see if all pages are there. Which is actually stupid and pointless, because it's SPM. THERE WILL NOT BE ANY MISSING PAGES. Spots the word OLYMPICS* *Squees inside* I was very tempted to laugh out loud. Seriously. I was going to go, "HOMG YAY OLYMPICS!" but the invigilator has this fascination with my back, so, ah, too bad.

Then the poem IF, which is my 2nd favourite, next to Road Not Taken. Anyway, "What is your dream" and "Why is it important to you?"

WTH, people. MAKE ME AN EGOTASTICAL MANIAC WILL YOU? No, I DID NOT write "To be the Secretary General of the United Nations". I just wrote, "To work in the United Nations"

Took a half hour nap. Still had 45 mins to go. Waited. Left hall early.

Nap was good, because of the cramming that is Sejarah. I hope my marriage of Mat Salleh from 'Sungai Skrang' from Tambunan attacking SBUB at Pulau Gaya still gets me marks, because I couldn't remember between Mat Salleh and Rentap and decided to crap the Tambunan thing out in the end, which, praise the Lord (I prayed. LOL), is correct in the end.

NAAHAHAHAHAHA

Maths tomorrow. I shall rest now. I shall practice after this.

I'm feeling too drained to squee at Zelkjo Ivanek on  House pictures right now. He looks very lawyer-ly. I shall imagine that it actually IS Ray Fiske, and that Patty Hewes is going to find out and freak out. Somehow. Something as convoluted as that.

Also, my mind's tired, which is why I'm not making much sense right now.

Gah.

For probably the first time in my life, I am having self-confidence issues.

I don't care if people tell me, 'Aiyah, x marks = A1 lah. You can do it lah'.

GAH.

My focus. It is slipping. This is BAD. I've always been so cavalier - UPSR, PMR, piano exams, MSSS Squash... I actually feel scared, unprepared.

The pressure. I know half of it is from myself; I want to do well, as well as my cousins, better than my cousins, better than my sister, better than myself. I don't want to end up a redundant failure.

I don't want to screw SPM up. I don't want to screw my dreams up. Because they're all I have, they're all I want, they're all I need to fuel me.

I think I probably almost broke down twice today, because I can't seem to get any studying done. Then I watched some vault prelims (I just had to add this, didn't I?) and I decided that maybe I should read the Bible before continuing to read some KOMSAS.

Anyway, I guess prayer helps, and I opened the Bible, and it was the Book of Isaiah.

Isaiah 44:2 - 5
"Thus says the Lord who made you
And formed you from the womb, who WILL help you:
'Fear not, O Jacob My servant:
And you, Jeshurun, whom I have chosen.

For I will pour water on him who is thirsty
And floods on the dry gound;
I will pour My Spirit on your descendants
And My blessing on your offspring;

They will spring up among the grass
Like willows by the watercourses

One will say, 'I am the Lord's'
Another will call himself by the name of Jacon;
Another will write with his hand, 'The Lord's'
And name himself by the name of Israel"

Then I turned to the Book of Jonah. And my maid was talking about Joseph's faith - how, by being God's man through and through, he became a powerful man in Egypt, by the grace and mercy of the Lord.

Conclusion: God is telling me to trust Him, but I clearly am doubting in my own abilities that I am doubting Him.

2nd conclusion: Get off the effing computer. Now. Until FX prelims are done. Then you can unwind. Pray. Study.

Conclusion of the conclusions: S'L is a nervous wreck. The hypothesis is accepted.

...

What hypothesis?